October Notes

Ok, Yes it is November and I am just finishing October notes, it be like that sometimes.

One excuse I have been telling myself is that it has been because I just moved to my first city of my choosing and the place I have been dreaming about living since I was a little kid. Venice Beach California is my new hometown, I have been here for 2 weeks, and it has been everything I have dreamed it would be and more. Expect a long form article on it here very soon.

But that wasn’t it.

Another is that I wanted to do a proper review of the book DUNE. The movie is out and I still have not been able to choke this book down yet. It doesn’t suck, it’s just a world building book and those take a lot of time and a lot of pages. That being said it moves very very very very slow. It builds a vivid world with a lot of moving parts. It has the feel of some familiar worlds but is indeed very unique. The magic has a unique flavor, the vision for the technology still holds up pretty well.

I have given way too much page space to that book. It has become more of a personal challenge than anything at this point. I can do this. I will do this. I must do this.

*update: saw the movie. I can never get that time back. Lesson learned.


These last couple of years have been a blur indeed. However I have learned a few things. Tomorrow never comes, do it now. Life is not patient or tolerant. Doing the right thing and being a good person does not shield you from jack shit. Injustice and tragedy can drop from the sky at any moment regardless of the life you live. We are all going to die someday, there are no continues, extensions, or do overs. If you have a dream, chase it. If you desire peace, demand it and defend it at all costs. What if today was your last day? Would you be ok with that? Now always feels too soon, but that is all there is. All there is is now! This very moment. Run that thought up the metaphysical flagpole and it stays true all the way to the top. Memories on one side, imagination on the other, but neither exist. The only thing that is ever happening is this very moment.

Let’s get two things straight.

  1. None of this makes any sense.
  2. Nothing is truly impossible.

I stand by these two axioms in the most literal sense. None of this makes any fucking sense! We live in a possibly infinite expanding void initiated by a singularity that contains propagating energy. This energy coalesces into various weird ass forms as it slows down and seems to intentionally (albeit temporarily) hold state in a battle against entropy. In this temporary stability things become matter, that matter uses the available energy around it to do more weird shit. The weirdest of which seems to be to be able to create brains. Brains were not invented. They emerged from the battle between energy and matter. THE BRAIN INVENTED ITSELF!!! Each individual human wakes up with one of these brains that already knows so much (a foundational data set embedded in DNA that passes from generation to generation), and can learn almost anything.

Wanna go up in space? We can do that. Want to go digging around for the bones of giant monsters that lived millions of years ago? We can do that. Your letters taking too long to get to their destination? Let’s make em invisible and send them at the speed of light!

If there is a boundary to possibility it sure isn’t standing in front of us and our dreams. If we are bad ass enough to live on a spinning electromagnet flying through infinity hitched to a stabilized nuclear fusion bomb, you can do the thing. Whatever that thing is, you can do it. Actually, you can do much harder things than that, and even harder than that, ad infinitum as they say in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. I don’t know about you but I am revoking my permission to hesitate. I have people I want to make really really proud and time could run out at any moment. Who’s coming with me?

“Few things are as important to your quality of life as your choices about how to spend the precious resource of your free time.”

-Winifred Gallagher

2 thoughts on “October Notes

  1. Alan Dean Foster November 6, 2021 / 3:02 pm

    “There are certain queer times and occasions in this strange mixed affair we call life when a man takes this whole universe for a vast practical joke, though the wit thereof he but dimly discerns, and more than suspects that the joke is at nobody’s expense but his own.” Herman Melville; Moby Dick.

    • jbrandonhall November 18, 2021 / 1:57 am

      Indeed there are and indeed we do my friend. I thought of you the other day while walking the streets of Santa Monica. I knew I was close to where you and your wife shared time. What a beautiful setting for a young romance. I imagined the memories you must have walking the very same paths. It has a very special energy. I think it may be the sunsets. I hope all is well.

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